I was thinking the other day hile practicing CPR, what would it be like for our own heart ot give out? The heart is pumping every minute, every second nonstop.  What if the heart gave out while writing a Xanga post? Would I be fine with that? Would you be fine with that?  I don't really care about death because it is just the natural process of life. death can happen whenever to whomever. A lot of question are going through my head. Personally if I were to die I would be ok with that. i mean there are a ton of things I would like to do before I die like travel, save people's lives, go cross country, etc. I would want to make a name for myself. I could grow up get a job, then die or I could make something of this life. I mean  might as well do something with my life or die. Everyone is different though. Some can weep in a corner and talk about how no one understands them or they can do something with their life. I know people all have their own problems being dealing with suicide to bfs and gfs beaking up with them. If one wants to live in misery, who are we to tell them otherwise?

I only bring this up because people live lives that contradict what they believe in. Example, I have talked to people who seem to have perfect lives, but they are completely unhappy still. They could do incredible things but still feel lonely. In my opinion, it all comes down to having friends and family and loved ones close by. Then again, people who almost celebs are unhappy.

Today I had an interesting.... exposure (if you want to call it that) at work. I was in Wlamart doing my janitor thing when all of a sudden a man with no shoes and no shirt walks into the store. The only thing he was wearing were overalls. Now Bucks County isn't exactly urbanized, but it isn't exactly hick-town either. It was a very unique/unusual/disturbing sight and hopefully one I will never have to witness again. Oh right, I am watching the movie Edward Scissorhands again. I forgot how amazing it was. Probably up there with Dumb and Dumber, Forest Gump, Superbad, and etc.

I stumbled upon an awesome show today. It is called Invader Zim. Yeah, I heard of it before, and I've seen it in Hot Topic, but I never saw the show. It's about an alien named Zim trying to take over Earth. He has a robot named GIR and an arch enemy name Dib. By far, GIR is completely badass. The coolest cartoon character and I think those who watch Invader Zim would agree.

Dib: Sorry I'm late... horrible... nightmare visions!
Ms. Bitters: It's called life, Dib. Now sit down.

Dib: You're just jealous...
Zim: This has nothing to do with jelly!

Zim: Once I infect the human's meat supply with filth, the planet will be mine for the taking! GIR, ready the tractor beam!
GIR: DOOKIE!
GIR: Sometimes I'm scared to think of what goes on in that tiny robot brain of yours
GIR: [looks out at the cows in the field. In his mind, they turn into Weenies wearing tuxedoes and top-hats]
Dapper Weenies: [in GIR's mind] Dance with us, GIR! Dance with us into oblivion!

So does anyone have an alter ego? I was thinking today how cool it would be to be a superhero or to simply be a different person. Personally, I always wanted to have telekenesis but I'm pretty certian that wont happen soon. More recently, I find myself more social and more outgoing with people and I do not know why. I used to be awkward around complete strangers and even sometimes my friends, but now I do not feel that way and trust me, it would annoy me to no end.

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